20

I'm 20 today. Older? Yes. Wiser? Not so sure. Feels like just another day. Nothing out of the ordinary. But then again, what can one expect? The world can't come to a standstill and breathe life in just cause the only 'effort' you did was being born years ago. And then for the rest of your life, you continue to quasi celebrate like a fucking moron on Meth, giggling incessantly when people wish you out of lameass 'formalities', just so you know some won't even do that, then there will be the ones who will peek out of nowhere like a surprise ten dollar note in some old crumpled jeans and unexpectedly bring a glee to your eyes and make you feel on top of the world. I've always been a sucker for the 'little things in life'. No, I'm not talking about the corny and gag-me-now kinds like cute little babies, stupid roses that will get thrown out of the window when they dry up, shitty teeny bopper music or anything that makes you want to puke your guts out. No, I'm talking about just general day to day things that might make a person take a step back and ponder that 'Eh, maybe life ain't so bad.' I don't know what you might constitute as 'little wondrous joys of life'. But when it comes to me, I'm sort of a cheapskate and will just settle for momentary crappy things. I've come to find it never helps being picky. When I drop my pen in class and someone non-chalantly picks it up for me that makes me happy. When people you don't know compliment you and you can actually tell that they're not faking it AND actually mean it. When you fight with someone and the next moment they forgive you, pretend like nothing happened and then share a slushie with you! You know you've been a bitch, but it gets overlooked. Wait, wasn't this about my birthday? : Damn, you attention span!

By the way, a great many people share the same birthday as me. Abraham Lincoln, Charles Darwin, Christina Ricci and obviously me - the Queen Of Narcissism =D Gotta admit - I kinda roll with the best! My friend Anand says "as of this moment, this very moment, the light , all of the lights shine on you, even though you don't need any, but it's the moment when a person thinks wow, Today is my birthday, today is my day, and no one in any form of existence can take away that from you." Ain't that sweet? I'm sure none of you bitches could come up with anything this good. I'm too tired to try to sound all witty and intellectual. Lets see how the day comes about and maybe I'll write about it later. Technically I'm not a teen anymore. Thank God for THAT. I feel like a stereotyped freak label has been taken off off me. Nothing left to say -- expect HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, BITCHES! =p 12th Feb is the best and the rest is inferior! Boo.

p.s YES, I do realize that the last immature blurt was not very 20-ish of me. Cut me some slack. I'm new at being 20.

XO